There is so much deep contradiction in my soul. Such deep longing for God - so deep that it is painful - a suffering continual - and yet not wanted by God - repulsed - empty - no faith -… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share
The tendency in our spiritual life but also our more general attitude toward love is that our feelings are all that is going on. And so to us the totality of love is what we feel. But to really love someone requires commitment, fidelity and vulnerability. Mother Teresa wasn't "feeling" Christ's love, and she could have shut down. But she… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share
There is so much deep contradiction in my soul. Such deep longing for God - so deep that it is painful - a suffering continual - and yet not wanted by God - repulsed - empty - no faith - no love - no zeal. Souls hold no attraction - Heaven means nothing - to me it looks like an… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share
To commit herself to becoming "an apostle of Joy" when humanly speaking she might have felt at the brink of despair, was heroic indeed. She could do so because her joy was rooted in the certitude of the ultimate goodness of God's loving plan for her. And though her faith in this truth did not touch her soul with consolation,… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share
What mattered to her was that she loved God, whether or not He granted her the consolation and joy of His felt presence. — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share Image
The smile that covered a "multitude of pains" was no hypocritical mask. She was trying to hide her sufferings - even from God! - so as not to make others, especially the poor, suffer because of them. When she promised to do "a little extra praying & smiling" for one of her friends, she was alluding to an acutely painful… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share
“The burning zeal…that had led her to India had apparently vanished. At the same time…she clung steadfastly to the faith she professed, and without… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share Image
“For the first time in this 11 years--I have come to love the darkness--for I believe now that it is a part, a very,… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share Image
“If you could know how happy I am, as Jesus' little spouse. No one…could I envy, because I am enjoying my complete happiness, even… — Brian Kolodiejchuk Copy Share Image
![“For the first time in this 11 years--I have come to love the darkness--for I believe now that it is a part, a very, very small part of Jesus' dakness and pain on earth. You have taught me to accept it [as] a "spiritual side of 'your work'"... (Mother Teresa, quoated in Kolodiejchuk, p. 208).” quote by Brian Kolodiejchuk](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/img-quotes/871/brian-kolodiejchuk-47338_darkness_for-the-first-time-in-this-11-years-i-ha_1640277.jpg)
