“What I am is constantly thrust into my face while I'm trying to be better than I am. Even if I'm actively doing all the right things, I can't escape the fact that my internal reactions are those of a… — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“I’ve always wanted to not give a fuck. While crying helplessly into my pillow for no good reason, I would often fantasize that maybe… — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“Fear and shame are the backbone of my self-control. They are my source of inspiration, my insurance against becoming entirely unacceptable. They help me do the right thing. And I am terrified of what I would be without them. Because I suspect that, left to my own devices, I would completely lose control of my life. I'm still hoping that… — Allie Brosh Copy Share
“I am incensed that reality has the audacity to do some of the things it does when I CLEARLY don't want those things to… — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“Nobody can guarantee that it's going to be okay, but - and I don't know if this will be comforting to anyone else -… — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“And that’s how I got to go to a birthday party while very heavily sedated.” — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“Most people can motivate themselves to do things simply by knowing that those things need to be done. But not me. For me, motivation is this horrible, scary game where I try to make myself do something while I actively avoid doing it. If I win, I have to do something I don't want to do. And if I lose,… — Allie Brosh Copy Share
“The illusion of control makes the helplessness seem more palatable. And when that illusion is taken away, I panic.” — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“It’s so somewhat effective that I now rely on it almost exclusively when I need to get myself to do something” — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“Fortunately, it turns out that being scared of yourself is a somewhat effective motivational technique.” — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“And that's the most frustrating thing about depression. It isn't always something you can fight back against with hope. It isn't even something -… — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
“And finally - FINALLY - after a lifetime of feelings and anxiety and more feelings, I didn't have any feelings left. I had spent… — Allie Brosh Copy Share Image
