“When the black thing was at its worst, when the illicit cocktails and the ten-mile runs stopped working, I would feel numb… — Alice Jamieson Dead Copy Share Image
“PART 2 I felt doomed to death, But in a flash, Before I could reduce my thoughts To an emotion, I felt… — Alice Jamieson Death Copy Share Image
“Weird? Absurd? That’s how it seemed to me. I had these forces, these compunctions, these alternative personalities inside me, driving me. It… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“One weekend it rained for 48 hours without stopping. The rain beat like bony fingers against the window panes. Tap. Tap. Tap.… — Alice Jamieson Acceptance Copy Share Image
“If I was set an essay on Friday, I’d spend three hours on Saturday morning in the library. Was that normal? I… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“The word is dissociate. There is no 'a' before the 'ss'. People invariably say dis-a-ssociate, which, if you're suffering Disso-ciative Identity Disorder/Multiple… — Alice Jamieson Disorder Copy Share Image
“It’s hard to feel supported when you can’t tell people everything. People haven’t really got a clue what it’s like. It’s hard… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“When I was cooking I enjoyed a sense of being ‘out’ of myself. The action of dicing vegetables and warming oil made… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“Some alters are what Dr Ross describes in Multiple Personality Disorder as 'fragments', which are 'relatively limited psychic states that express only… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“When sleep came, I would dream bad dreams. Not the baby and the big man with a cigarette-lighter dream. Another dream. The… — Alice Jamieson Bad dream Copy Share Image
“During this hour in the waking streets I felt at ease, at peace; my body, which I despised, operated like a machine.… — Alice Jamieson Blood pressure Copy Share Image
“Of course, I should have known the kids would pop out in the atmosphere of Roberta's office. That's what they do when… — Alice Jamieson Alter-personalities Copy Share Image
“Some alters are what Dr Ross describes in Multiple Personality Disorder as 'fragments'. which are 'relatively limited psychic states that express only… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“Why do I take a blade and slash my arms? Why do I drink myself into a stupor? Why do I swallow… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“Once I had found the courage to tell Rebecca about the children in my head, it wasn't so hard in the coming… — Alice Jamieson Children Copy Share Image
“I became skilled at covering my tracks, filling in the blanks. Sometimes the blanks were never filled. At other times, I would… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“Just as sometimes I wondered if Grandpa had ever existed, sometimes I wondered if I truly existed myself. As I was running,… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“My body was a Pandora’s box of aches and pains. When Grandpa died all the ailments came jumping out. I was forever… — Alice Jamieson Aches Copy Share Image
“Why did I allow the abuse to continue? Even as a teenager? I didn’t. Something that had been plaguing me for years… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“Did I imagine the castle, the dungeon, the ritual orgies and violations? Did Lucy, Billy, Samuel, Eliza, Shirley and Kato make it… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“There, there, best to bring it all up,' she said. My memory was in shreds. Imagine a photograph cut into narrow strips… — Alice Jamieson Amnesia Copy Share Image
“It is hard to bring paedophile rings to justice. Thankfully it does happen. Perhaps the most horrific recent case came before the… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“As a child I had been taken to see Dr Bradshaw on countless occasions; it was in his surgery that Billy had… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“The odd sensation I had while cooking would often last through the meal, then dissolve as I climbed the stairs. I would… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“The return of the voices would end in a migraine that made my whole body throb. I could do nothing except lie… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“It is necessary to make this point in answer to the 'iatrogenic' theory that the unveiling of repressed memories in MPD sufferers,… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“I remembered during puberty, through the anorexic mists of intermittent menstrual cycles, that man, my father, lifting Shirley's nightdress over her head… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
“I had a bizarre rapport with this mirror and spent a lot of time gazing into the glass to see who was… — Alice Jamieson Abuse Copy Share Image
