The images are visual, auditory, olfactory, kinesthetic. They aren't laid down on the same tracks as thought. And sometimes, when they return to you, it is as if you feel them for the very first time. Memory lives on in… — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
I'm getting less good at faking it. People in my family are noticing and asking what's wrong. My friends give me invitations to talk,… — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
I would never kill myself intentionally. I couldn't do that to my family, my friends ... But to have fate step in and give me a shove, that's a different matter. Then I have the exit, without the guilt. I am ashamed of myself for thinking like this. But more than anything, I am frightened that it makes me feel… — Martha Manning Copy Share
The infinity of this vacancy, the pervasive pain, the longing for some spirit, some lightness, some joy - that's all that is left. — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“She reports the breakup of the relationship as if she is presenting a case in court - all facts, no feeling. I lean forward… — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“In the psychological literature, depression is often seen as a defense against sadness. But I'll take sadness any day. There is no contest. Sadness… — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“Suffer from depression." That's right. It is suffering. A person does not just have depression. She suffers from it.” — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“He throws a quick arm around me and quotes a line we've always loved from The New Hampshire Hotel, "Keep passing the open windows.” — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“There is no getting away from a wave that has got your name on it. The tide will come in whether you want it to or not. And there really is not a damn thing you can do to stop it, reverse it, or even delay it. Forget it. You have to plant your feet solidly in the sand and… — Martha Manning Copy Share
I always feel bad laughing at people who act crazy. But sometimes the things they do are so damned funny. I wonder what I'd… — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“All the romantic nonsense about depression somehow making one into a creature of unique sensibilities is easy to agree with when I feel good. Then I'm sharper, superior for having weathered something terribly difficult, or just plain pleased to having been gotten away with something once again - like the snow day after the night's homework I did not do.… — Martha Manning Copy Share
“I look at other people and think, "He lives without meds. She does. What is wrong with me? Am I so biochemically screwed up,… — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
“I didn’t want to die because I hated myself; I wanted to die because I loved myself enough to want this pain to end.” — Martha Manning Copy Share Image
