On the fifth day I knew Kaidan would have made it home. I…
““On the fifth day I knew Kaidan would have made it home. I held my breath and called him. I listened to every charming word of his voice mail, then hung up. That evening I sat on my bed and called again. This time I left a message. “Hi, Kai, um, Kaidan. It's me. Anna. I'm just trying to see if you made it home safely. I'm sure you probably did. Just checking. You can call me anytime. If you want. Anyway. Okay, bye.” I hung up and buried my shamed face into a pillow. Now I was leaving messages after he'd made it clear he wanted zero to do with me? Next thing I knew I'd be frequenting his shows to give him psycho stares from the back, and then doing late-night drive-bys to see what girl he was bringing home. The thought of him with another girl made me writhe in discomfort and curl up in the fetal position. Day six was our first day of back-to-school shopping. We still had a month before school began, but the state issued a tax-free day, so stores were having big sales. I eyed all the teensy skirts and fashionable shirts dangling on mannequins. I tried to imagine Kaidan's reaction if I came dressed like that to one of his shows, some guy other than Jay on my arm. Ugly stalker thoughts. I was full of them. Two weeks passed, and I was still tripping over chairs to grab the phone every time it rang, like now. This time it was Jay.””
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The narrator obsessively monitors a former lover, sending messages and stalking, driven by insecurity and jealousy, leading to escalating intrusive behavior.
In simple terms: Obsessive jealousy leads to stalking.
Recognize and stop unhealthy fixation.
Themes
Mood
Type
When to use this quote
- relationship breakup
- social media monitoring
- public events
- nighttime surveillance
Key Concepts
Questions to Reflect On
- What healthier coping strategies could replace this behavior?
- How might confronting the issue directly change the outcome?
Stalking can cause legal and emotional consequences for both parties.