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Night after night I inflict abuse on myself, even drawing…

“Night after night I inflict abuse on myself, even drawing blood. It's strangely calming. I know the pain will stop whenever I want. I was the one who decided when it should start; I will be the one to decide when it stops. However much it hurts, I draw some comfort from the idea that I'm in control.” quote by Maude Julien
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““Night after night I inflict abuse on myself, even drawing blood. It's strangely calming. I know the pain will stop whenever I want. I was the one who decided when it should start; I will be the one to decide when it stops. However much it hurts, I draw some comfort from the idea that I'm in control.””

Maude Julien

About This Quote

This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.

Self‑inflicted pain is used as a coping mechanism to regain a sense of control over emotional turmoil.

In simple terms: She uses pain to feel in control of herself.

Key Takeaway

Seek healthier ways to regain control over emotions.

Themes

self‑control coping pain psychology autonomy

Mood

distressed reflective hopeful

Type

cautionary psychological self‑help

When to use this quote

  • personal crisis
  • therapy sessions
  • stressful days
  • nighttime anxiety
  • self‑reflection

Key Concepts

self‑harm emotional regulation control mechanisms addiction

Questions to Reflect On

  • What healthier alternatives exist?
  • Why does pain feel calming?
A Different Perspective

Pain can cause lasting damage and may not solve underlying issues.

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