Every day I hold my breath until I see her. Sometimes in…
“Every day I hold my breath until I see her. Sometimes in class, sometimes in the hallway. I can't start breathing until I see her smile at me. She always does, but the next day I'm always afraid she won't. At lunch I'm afraid she'll smile more at BT than at me. I'm afraid she'll look at him in some way that she doesn't look at me. I'm afraid that when I go to bed at night I'll still be wondering. I'm always afraid. Is that what love is - fear?”
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The narrator confesses that his love is tangled with constant anxiety about the other's attention and affection.
In simple terms: Love feels like fear of losing attention.
Recognize and address insecurity.
Themes
Mood
Type
When to use this quote
- school hallway
- classroom
- lunch
- night thoughts
Key Concepts
Questions to Reflect On
- What does this fear reveal about your self‑worth?
- How can you find confidence beyond her reactions?
Fear can mask genuine connection and cause self‑sabotage.