Suicide. It's something I've been thinking about. Not too…
““Suicide. It's something I've been thinking about. Not too seriously, but I have been thinking about it.” That's the note. Word for word. And I know it's word for word because I wrote it dozens of times before delivering it. I'd write it, throw it away, write it, crumple it up, throw it away. But why was I writing it to begin with? I asked myself that question every time I printed the words onto a new sheet of paper. Why was I writing this note? It was a lie. I hadn't been thinking about it. Not really. Not in detail. The thought would come into my head and I'd push it away. But I pushed it away a lot.””
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The narrator repeatedly writes a suicide note, questioning its purpose, revealing denial and avoidance of true emotional pain.
In simple terms: He writes a suicide note but isn’t serious, showing avoidance.
Key Takeaway
Acknowledge and confront genuine feelings rather than dismissing them.
Themes
mental health
denial
self‑harm
writing
reflection
Mood
somber
reflective
Type
literary
psychological
When to use this quote
- therapy sessions
- support groups
- personal journaling
- crisis hotlines
Key Concepts
psychology
coping mechanisms
emotional honesty
Questions to Reflect On
- Why do people write harmful notes without intent?
- How can we encourage authentic emotional expression?
A Different Perspective
Denial can prevent seeking help.