My heart is broken and filled with pain I can't bare to…

“My heart is broken and filled with pain I can't bare to live anymore I have suffered enough You broke my heart once and I let it slide But when you broke it for a second you crossed the line I hate you, I hate you more than life it self I really think you should die Why did I let love get the best of me and not see wut was really going on You never liked me You never wanted me So why did you flirt You let me believe something could have happened Like you falling in love with me I loved you, I still love you But I can't bare to show it anymore As far as I am concerned you don't even exist to me In my heart your gone In my mind your dead I cry myself to sleep thinking about you If only you knew how much I loved you If only you could see My life ended that day when I realized I can't have you and when I seen things I never wanted to see It hurt me, It hurt me deep inside my heart is broken in two I don't think I could love again the way that I loved you There is no more love in me now I am filled with hate Hate for you but more for myself I dont want to live anymore suicide is the only answer Why couldn't you tell me from the beginning that it was only a joke Why didn't you tell me not to take it seriously What was I to do Keep dreaming that one day I could have you Or maybe I should have realized that once I meet you I couldn't have you I don't want to live Suicide is the only answer.”

— Anonymous