I'm so sorry; I seemed to have failed you I destroyed your…

“I'm so sorry; I seemed to have failed you I destroyed your trust in me and left you to bleed And now I sit here in this corner, lost in a world of my own Did my heart ever beat for you? Or have I been lying to myself all this time My heart has turned cold as ice and feels heavy in my chest My eyes have dulled and no life shows in them I thought that if I kept everything from you, everything would be alright I was wrong and look where we are now Broken hearted and searching for an answer My whole life is a lie and I would do anything to fix it I let my secrets out and look where it's gotten me I'm being destroyed, inside and out I wish I could go back to the start I would ask for help but no one can help me I've already crossed that line and can't return I'm causing you pain, I'm causing everyone pain I'd end my life but that would only bring more pain And I'm stuck in this web with no way out I wanted off and wished to be free But now I want back on, I shouldn't be free I'm being destroyed inch by inch, this worm won't stop It starts from the heart and works its way out It's killed me heartless and stopped me broken Im drifting away from reality and theres no way back Id return but I just cant stand My bodys weak, everythings numb Ive lied to you and everyone else Ive lied to myself and Im choking on it now Im a whore, Im fat, and Im mentally unstable How many more reasons can you handle? These lies are a plenty, just look at my shelves One book, two books, or would you like more Im already knocking at Satans door And when you look towards the sky after I have passed Youll try and think of me but theres no memory left Everyones already forgotten, so have you And I know now why no one remembers My life was useless, it was full of lies It was full of heart ache and pain and everything in between So now I just float here in black darkness Were my kind a like linger in pain And we disappear like shadows, Never to be seen again”

— Anonymous