I wanted to start again. I wanted to make the same…
““I wanted to start again. I wanted to make the same mistakes, love the same people, fight the same enemies, befriend the same friends, marry the same wives and sire the same sons. I wanted to live the same life again. 13I didn’t want the seat Rama has reserved for me in his heaven. I only wanted my beautiful earth. I knew such things were not going to happen. I was sixty, not sixteen. If I lived, I would be a one-eyed, dirty, old beggar in some wayside temple, with stinking, tattered clothes. A long way from what I once was. I wanted to die now. I wanted this to end. I wanted to go away. Let the burning cities take care of themselves. Let the Asuras fight their own wars and be damned along with the Devas. I only wanted to return to my childhood and start over again, every single damn thing, again and again and again…””
About This Quote
This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation.
The speaker longs to reset life, to repeat past joys and mistakes, rejecting divine destiny for a simple earthly existence, yet acknowledges the impossibility of such a reset.
In simple terms: Desire to relive life and escape fate.
Key Takeaway
Accept the present, let go of impossible resets.
Themes
mortality
regret
destiny
rebirth
illusion
Mood
melancholic
contemplative
Type
literary
existential
When to use this quote
- end‑of‑life reflections
- grief counseling
- spiritual crisis
- acceptance work
Key Concepts
Existential longing
fatalism
nostalgia
Questions to Reflect On
- What would you change if you could start over?
- How can you find peace without erasing the past?
A Different Perspective
May romanticize death without addressing underlying pain.