--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: My only thought is that I am not going to…" description: "\"“My only thought is that I am not going to end up truly dead this time in Raffe’s arms. I am not going to be one more wound on his soul.”\" — Susan Ee" image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/fee/susan-ee-1414_penryn-young_my-only-thought-is-that-i-am-not-going-t_1069130.jpg" --- # My only thought is that I am not going to end up truly… ![“My only thought is that I am not going to end up truly dead this time in Raffe’s arms. I am not going to be one more wound on his soul.” quote by Susan Ee](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/fee/susan-ee-1414_penryn-young_my-only-thought-is-that-i-am-not-going-t_1069130.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/fee/susan-ee-1414_penryn-young_my-only-thought-is-that-i-am-not-going-t_1069130.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/fee/susan-ee-1414_penryn-young_my-only-thought-is-that-i-am-not-going-t_1069130.jpg) > ““My only thought is that I am not going to end up truly dead this time in Raffe’s arms. I am not going to be one more wound on his soul.”” [Susan Ee](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/susan-ee/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. The narrator hopes to survive and avoid becoming another emotional wound for a lover, reflecting desire for redemption and fear of being a burden. **In simple terms:** Wants to survive and not be a burden in love. Key Takeaway Seek healing, not harm. Themes redemption love self-worth Mood determined vulnerable Type personal emotional When to use this quote - intimate relationships - life‑threatening situations Key Concepts emotional burden survival instinct Questions to Reflect On - What does “not being a wound” mean to you? - How can you balance self‑care with caring for a partner? A Different Perspective Self‑sacrifice can undermine personal agency. ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ No ratings yet [Penryn-young](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/penryn-young/) [Susan-ee](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/susan-ee/) ## Related quotes > [“Let go," I say into his ear. Raffe holds me tighter like there’s no room for discussion.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/susan-ee/let-go-i-say-into-his-ear-raffe-holds-me-tighter-like-there-s-no-room/) [Susan Ee](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/susan-ee/) > [“I snuggle closer to him in my sleep and my whimpering subsides to a contented sigh. 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