--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: So do I kill myself now, or do I wait and…" description: "\"“So do I kill myself now, or do I wait and do it in front of Evan so he feels really, really, really bad?”\" — Robin Benway" image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/44e/robin-benway-12717_kill_so-do-i-kill-myself-now-or-do-i-wait-and_175272.jpg" --- # So do I kill myself now, or do I wait and do it in front… ![“So do I kill myself now, or do I wait and do it in front of Evan so he feels really, really, really bad?” quote by Robin Benway](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/44e/robin-benway-12717_kill_so-do-i-kill-myself-now-or-do-i-wait-and_175272.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/44e/robin-benway-12717_kill_so-do-i-kill-myself-now-or-do-i-wait-and_175272.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/44e/robin-benway-12717_kill_so-do-i-kill-myself-now-or-do-i-wait-and_175272.jpg) > ““So do I kill myself now, or do I wait and do it in front of Evan so he feels really, really, really bad?”” [Robin Benway](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/robin-benway/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. A dark, sarcastic contemplation of suicide as a means of inflicting emotional pain on another person. **In simple terms:** Considering suicide to hurt someone else. Key Takeaway Recognize that harming yourself to punish others is not a solution. Themes mental health self-harm emotional manipulation Mood distressed angry Type cautionary psychological When to use this quote - personal crisis - relationship conflict - seeking attention Key Concepts despair guilt psychological distress Questions to Reflect On - What are healthier ways to express anger toward Evan? - How can you seek help when feeling trapped? A Different Perspective Suicide is a permanent act that does not resolve underlying issues. ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ No ratings yet ## Related quotes > [Very well, kill him. But wait one more minute. 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