--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm…" description: "\"What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm begging you please, Tell me why, The fear of life, The fear of death, Fear in itself, Steals my breath, I want..." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg" --- # What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm begging you… ![“What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm begging you please, Tell me why, The fear of life, The fear of death, Fear in itself, Steals my breath, I want this to end, This pointless pain, Driven by anger, Making me insane, Ghosts and ghouls, My only friends, Not that you care, Till my life, I end…” quote by Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg) > “What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm begging you please, Tell me why, The fear of life, The fear of death, Fear in itself, Steals my breath, I want this to end, This pointless pain, Driven by anger, Making me insane, Ghosts and ghouls, My only friends, Not that you care, Till my life, I end, Held back by fear, To let it all flow, Red rivers of life, I will never know, One day I'll snap, Cold steel to skin, Beautiful red ocean, Revealing my sin, Dreamily I pray, To be free at last, The feeling of nothing, Leaving me outcast.” [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. A lament of existential dread and fear of both life and death, expressing a desire for release from pain and isolation. **In simple terms:** Despair and fear of living and dying. Key Takeaway Seek help and confront fear. Themes existential dread loneliness mental health despair Mood sad desperate Type personal emotional When to use this quote - mental health crisis - personal therapy - support groups - emergency intervention Key Concepts nihilism psychological pain selfdestruction Questions to Reflect On - What steps can you take to find support? - How might confronting fear change your outlook? A Different Perspective Hope and professional help can mitigate self‑destructive thoughts. ★ ★ ★ ★ ★ No ratings yet [Death](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/death/) [Fear](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/fear/) [Fear of death](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/fear-of-death/) [Fear Of Life](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/fear-of-life/) [Free At Last](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/free-at-last/) [Suicide](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/suicide/) ## Related quotes > [Less base the fear of death than fear of life.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/edward-young/less-base-the-fear-of-death-than-fear-of-life/) [Edward Young](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/edward-young/) > [Mortality applies to every aspect of life. The fear of death is the driving fear of life.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/nick-tosches/mortality-applies-to-every-aspect-of-life-the-fear-of-death-is-the/) [Nick Tosches](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/nick-tosches/) > [“Biggest fear of life is, fear of change.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/sukant-ratnakar/biggest-fear-of-life-is-fear-of-change/) [Sukant Ratnakar](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/sukant-ratnakar/) > [The fear of life, the fear of burdens and of duties, of annoyances and of catastrophes! The fear of life, which makes us, through…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mile-zola/the-fear-of-life-the-fear-of-burdens-and-of-duties-of-annoyances-and/) [Emile Zola](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mile-zola/) > [The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. The fear…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mark-twain/the-fear-of-death-follows-from-the-fear-of-life-a-man-who-lives-fully/) [Mark Twain](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mark-twain/) > [“What I wanted to express very clearly and intensely was that the reason these people had to invent or imagine heroes and gods is…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/frida-kahlo/what-i-wanted-to-express-very-clearly-and-intensely-was-that-the/) [Frida Kahlo](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/frida-kahlo/) > [I believe that fear of life brings a greater fear of death.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/david-blaine/i-believe-that-fear-of-life-brings-a-greater-fear-of-death/) [David Blaine](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/david-blaine/) > [The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mark-twain/the-fear-of-death-follows-from-the-fear-of-life-a-man-who-lives-fully-3/) [Mark Twain](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mark-twain/) > [The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A person who lives fully is prepared to die at any moment.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mark-twain/the-fear-of-death-follows-from-the-fear-of-life-a-person-who-lives/) [Mark Twain](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mark-twain/) > [Fear of death is understandable, being that we are all going to die, but fear of life and suffering is more of an irrational…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/steve-toltz/fear-of-death-is-understandable-being-that-we-are-all-going-to-die/) [Steve Toltz](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/steve-toltz/) > [“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.” ―Mark Twain”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/erlend-bakke/the-fear-of-death-follows-from-the-fear-of-life-a-man-who-lives-fully-2/) [Erlend Bakke](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/erlend-bakke/) > [“...He had seen that look in so many eyes lately, not the fear of death but the fear of life. Is it like this?…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/elizabeth-goudge/he-had-seen-that-look-in-so-many-eyes-lately-not-the-fear-of-death/) [Elizabeth Goudge](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/elizabeth-goudge/) > [Entertainment alleviates the fear of life, but art vanquishes the fear of death](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/dean-cavanagh/entertainment-alleviates-the-fear-of-life-but-art-vanquishes-the-fear/) [Dean Cavanagh](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/dean-cavanagh/) > [The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives full is prepared to die at any tym.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/jasmine/the-fear-of-death-follows-from-the-fear-of-life-a-man-who-lives-full/) [Jasmine](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/jasmine/) > [It's an unavoidable truth. Fear of life closes off more opportunities for us than fear of death ever does.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/agnes-moorehead/it-s-an-unavoidable-truth-fear-of-life-closes-off-more-opportunities/) [Agnes Moorehead](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/agnes-moorehead/) ## More by Oliver > [Fuck you. My music is better.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/fuck-you-my-music-is-better/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [This fire is burning, my wrists are bleeding, I have thought of our time, but nothing I do, can take back the crime. I…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/this-fire-is-burning-my-wrists-are-bleeding-i-have-thought-of-our/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [Hahaha, love it.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/hahaha-love-it/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [“I like performing because it's direct contact with live people. I write a good deal of the time but that's introspective creation rather than…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/i-like-performing-because-it-s-direct-contact-with-live-people-i/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [I have always dreamed of having you. And now, I finally get you. On my bed, inside of me. Our bodies focused on one…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/i-have-always-dreamed-of-having-you-and-now-i-finally-get-you-on-my/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [I wasnt kidding when I said I was at church](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/i-wasnt-kidding-when-i-said-i-was-at-church/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [Try to be something else. It may involve blood and pain, but it can happen. Just rip through that skin of yours.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/try-to-be-something-else-it-may-involve-blood-and-pain-but-it-can/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [It. Was. Never. My. Intention. But I enjoy being insane.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/it-was-never-my-intention-but-i-enjoy-being-insane/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [I know I havw been bad, I know. And I apologize. I may not be here one day, so if you never hear from…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/i-know-i-havw-been-bad-i-know-and-i-apologize-i-may-not-be-here-one/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [“If there is one sin—or rather one waste—it is not doing what you have the inclination or gift for.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/if-there-is-one-sin-or-rather-one-waste-it-is-not-doing-what-you-have/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [The anger is here inside, there's nothing left to hide. I have ran, I have fought, I done all there is to do. But…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/the-anger-is-here-inside-there-s-nothing-left-to-hide-i-have-ran-i/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) > [People say I'm beautiful, and that maybe true, but I don't see it, maybe you do?](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/people-say-i-m-beautiful-and-that-maybe-true-but-i-don-t-see-it-maybe/) [Oliver](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) [Explore all 13 Oliver quotes ](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/) ## More Death quotes > [“He wondered how it was fair that your dying should depend so much on when you were born.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mitch-albom/he-wondered-how-it-was-fair-that-your-dying-should-depend-so-much-on/) [Mitch Albom](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mitch-albom/) > [What sets worlds in motion is the interplay of differences, their attractions and repulsions. Life is plurality, death is uniformity. By suppressing differences and…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/octavio-paz/what-sets-worlds-in-motion-is-the-interplay-of-differences-their/) [Octavio Paz](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/octavio-paz/) > [Most of us are convinced that we are our egos, which is who we think we are. The ego is part of our incarnation.…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/ram-dass/most-of-us-are-convinced-that-we-are-our-egos-which-is-who-we-think/) [Ram Dass](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/ram-dass/) > [I do not want to live at the cost of the life even of a snake. I should let him bite me to death…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mahatma-gandhi/i-do-not-want-to-live-at-the-cost-of-the-life-even-of-a-snake-i/) [Mahatma Gandhi](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mahatma-gandhi/) > [“It was beautiful. He thought he had never seen anything so beautiful in all his life; that, having seen it, he could die content,…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/mira-grant/it-was-beautiful-he-thought-he-had-never-seen-anything-so-beautiful/) [Mira Grant](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/mira-grant/) > [Retirement? You're talking about death, right?](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/robert-altman/retirement-you-re-talking-about-death-right/) [Robert Altman](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/robert-altman/) > [With multiplayer, permanent death, and an ever-changing world to explore and conquer, 'A Valley Without Wind' might be the place you're looking for if…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rob-manuel/with-multiplayer-permanent-death-and-an-ever-changing-world-to/) [Rob Manuel](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rob-manuel/) > [“What did you see?” she asked gently. His brow furrowed, as if he could not understand the question. Then his eyes turned to the…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/j-anthony-torino/what-did-you-see-she-asked-gently-his-brow-furrowed-as-if-he-could/) J. Anthony Torino > [Those whose life is long still strive for gain, and for all mortals all things take second place to money.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/sophocles/those-whose-life-is-long-still-strive-for-gain-and-for-all-mortals/) [Sophocles](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/sophocles/) > [“I practice Dying--every night-- But have not learned to, still-- Though Talented--by Mortal bones-- For such a common Skill.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alan-w-powers/i-practice-dying-every-night-but-have-not-learned-to-still-though/) Alan W. Powers > [“You must understand the pain and grief of losing someone is nothing more than a function of survival.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/steven-cooper/you-must-understand-the-pain-and-grief-of-losing-someone-is-nothing/) [Steven Cooper](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/steven-cooper/) > [I am not a depressive person at all, but I reflect a lot on my life, and life in general, from the perspective of…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alejandro-gonzalez-inarritu/i-am-not-a-depressive-person-at-all-but-i-reflect-a-lot-on-my-life/) [Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritu](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alejandro-gonzalez-inarritu/) > [“Death is a reality that calls the rest of life and all of our assorted strivings into sharp relief.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/craig-d-lounsbrough/death-is-a-reality-that-calls-the-rest-of-life-and-all-of-our/) [Craig D. Lounsbrough](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/craig-d-lounsbrough/) > [I love life. I love life to death.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/emmanuelle-riva/i-love-life-i-love-life-to-death/) [Emmanuelle Riva](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/emmanuelle-riva/) > [I think when you’re dying you start looking for important things in the corners. You can’t let anything that seems even semi-important pass, because…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/chris-crutcher/i-think-when-you-re-dying-you-start-looking-for-important-things-in/) [Chris Crutcher](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/chris-crutcher/) [Browse all 39,127 Death quotes ](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/death/) ```json { "@context": "https://schema.org", "@graph": [ { "@type": "Quotation", "text": "What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm begging you please, Tell me why, The fear of life, The fear of death, Fear in itself, Steals my breath, I want this to end, This pointless pain, Driven by anger, Making me insane, Ghosts and ghouls, My only friends, Not that you care, Till my life, I end, Held back by fear, To let it all flow, Red rivers of life, I will never know, One day I'll snap, Cold steel to skin, Beautiful red ocean, Revealing my sin, Dreamily I pray, To be free at last, The feeling of nothing, Leaving me outcast.", "creator": { "@type": "Person", "name": "Oliver" }, "isPartOf": { "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/#website" }, "url": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-begging-you-please-tell-me-why/", "about": { "@type": "Thing", "name": "Death" }, "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-begging-you-please-tell-me-why/#quotation", "image": { "@type": "ImageObject", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg", "contentUrl": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg", "url": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/60c/oliver-27675_death_what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-b_887802.jpg", "width": 1080, "height": 1080, "caption": "“What is the reason, I'm still alive, I'm begging you please, Tell me why, The fear of life, The fear of…” — Oliver", "creditText": "SMS4Smile Quotes", "creator": { "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/#organization" } } }, { "@type": "BreadcrumbList", "itemListElement": [ { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 1, "name": "Home", "item": "https://sms4smile.com/" }, { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 2, "name": "Quotes", "item": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/" }, { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 3, "name": "Oliver", "item": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/oliver-2/" }, { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 4, "name": "What is the reason, I'm still...", "item": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-begging-you-please-tell-me-why/" } ], "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/oliver-2/what-is-the-reason-i-m-still-alive-i-m-begging-you-please-tell-me-why/#breadcrumb" }, { "@type": "WebSite", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/#website", "name": "SMS4Smile Quotes", "url": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/", "publisher": { "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/#organization" } }, { "@type": "Organization", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/#organization", "name": "SMS4Smile Quotes", "url": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/", "logo": { "@type": "ImageObject", "url": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/wp-content/themes/sq/assets/icons/icon-512.png", "width": 512, "height": 512 } } ] } ```