--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: That was me. I was The Fixer. Everything…" description: "\"“That was me. I was The Fixer. Everything was fixed. Well, other than what was important. I walked down the hallway of the hospital like I was on death..." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/6b2/l-j-shen-1983_death_that-was-me-i-was-the-fixer-everything-w_131276.jpg" --- # That was me. I was The Fixer. Everything was fixed. Well… ![“That was me. I was The Fixer. Everything was fixed. Well, other than what was important. I walked down the hallway of the hospital like I was on death row. I wasn’t scared, I was petrified. For the first time in my life, I was going to do the right thing, and I wished it felt better, because the…” quote by L.J. Shen](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/6b2/l-j-shen-1983_death_that-was-me-i-was-the-fixer-everything-w_131276.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/6b2/l-j-shen-1983_death_that-was-me-i-was-the-fixer-everything-w_131276.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/6b2/l-j-shen-1983_death_that-was-me-i-was-the-fixer-everything-w_131276.jpg) > ““That was me. I was The Fixer. Everything was fixed. Well, other than what was important. I walked down the hallway of the hospital like I was on death row. I wasn’t scared, I was petrified. For the first time in my life, I was going to do the right thing, and I wished it felt better, because the truth was, it felt like fucking shit. It felt like hell, like torture, like a sharp butcher’s knife digging into my chest, piercing into my heart and pulling it out slowly, breaking each and every one of my ribs on its way out. Every door I passed brought me closer to the door I didn’t want to knock on.”” [L.J. Shen](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/l-j-shen/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. The narrator confronts a painful truth, feeling trapped between duty and personal horror, realizing that doing the right thing can be emotionally devastating. **In simple terms:** Doing right can hurt. Key Takeaway Accept that moral choices may be painful. Themes morality psychology conflict Mood intense reflective Type literary emotional When to use this quote - hospital crisis - personal crisis - ethical dilemma Key Concepts guilt courage self‑sacrifice Questions to Reflect On - What does “right thing” mean to you? - How do you cope with moral pain? 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