--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: It's been nineteen days since I've had a…" description: "\"It's been nineteen days since I've had a suicidal impulse. One of the things that pulls me back is I think to myself, and as a Muslim, I believe that G..." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/bc1/haroon-moghul-23614_believe_it-s-been-nineteen-days-since-i-ve-had-a_1089767.jpg" --- # It's been nineteen days since I've had a suicidal impulse… ![“It's been nineteen days since I've had a suicidal impulse. One of the things that pulls me back is I think to myself, and as a Muslim, I believe that God created everything and intended everything and here we are in this unbelievably vast universe that's billions of years old. And yet, here I am…” quote by Haroon Moghul](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/bc1/haroon-moghul-23614_believe_it-s-been-nineteen-days-since-i-ve-had-a_1089767.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/bc1/haroon-moghul-23614_believe_it-s-been-nineteen-days-since-i-ve-had-a_1089767.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/bc1/haroon-moghul-23614_believe_it-s-been-nineteen-days-since-i-ve-had-a_1089767.jpg) > “It's been nineteen days since I've had a suicidal impulse. One of the things that pulls me back is I think to myself, and as a Muslim, I believe that God created everything and intended everything and here we are in this unbelievably vast universe that's billions of years old. And yet, here I am, an individual human being, in a little corner of the galaxy and planet that is remarkable in some ways and unremarkable in others. All I wish is to say that He meant for every single person who's ever lived to live. I don't necessarily understand why but that was His choice and here I am.” [Haroon Moghul](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/haroon-moghul/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. The speaker finds comfort in believing that a divine purpose underlies all existence, which helps counter suicidal thoughts. **In simple terms:** Faith in a higher purpose eases despair. Key Takeaway Remember you are part of a larger design. Themes faith existential meaning mental health hope purpose Mood reflective hopeful serene Type personal spiritual motivational When to use this quote - personal crisis - therapy sessions - spiritual reflection - support groups Key Concepts theology psychology cosmology Questions to Reflect On - How does belief shape your response to despair? - What other supports complement spiritual coping? 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