--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: I’m not certain what I notice first, the…" description: "\"“I’m not certain what I notice first, the bright flickering light that illuminates the darkness underneath my eyelids, or the shrill screams that pull ..." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/35c/christine-fonseca-15934_darkness_i-m-not-certain-what-i-notice-first-the_1550833.jpg" --- # I’m not certain what I notice first, the bright flickering… ![“I’m not certain what I notice first, the bright flickering light that illuminates the darkness underneath my eyelids, or the shrill screams that pull me form the dredges of sleep. Either way, I’m awake. And afraid.” quote by Christine Fonseca](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/35c/christine-fonseca-15934_darkness_i-m-not-certain-what-i-notice-first-the_1550833.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/35c/christine-fonseca-15934_darkness_i-m-not-certain-what-i-notice-first-the_1550833.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/35c/christine-fonseca-15934_darkness_i-m-not-certain-what-i-notice-first-the_1550833.jpg) > ““I’m not certain what I notice first, the bright flickering light that illuminates the darkness underneath my eyelids, or the shrill screams that pull me form the dredges of sleep. Either way, I’m awake. And afraid.”” [Christine Fonseca](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/christine-fonseca/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. The narrator is torn between unsettling visions and terrifying sounds, leading to a state of heightened alertness and fear. **In simple terms:** Fearful wakefulness caused by disturbing thoughts and sounds. Key Takeaway Recognize and address sources of nighttime anxiety. Themes fear anxiety consciousness Mood anxious reflective Type poetic personal When to use this quote - nighttime insomnia - meditation - therapy sessions Key Concepts psychology sleep disturbance mental health Questions to Reflect On - What triggers your nighttime fear? - How can you calm the mind before sleep? 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