--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: There is so much deep contradiction in my…" description: "\"There is so much deep contradiction in my soul. Such deep longing for God - so deep that it is painful - a suffering continual - and yet not wanted by ..." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/1ab/brian-kolodiejchuk-47338_attraction_there-is-so-much-deep-contradiction-in-m_450878.png" --- # There is so much deep contradiction in my soul. Such deep… ![“There is so much deep contradiction in my soul. Such deep longing for God - so deep that it is painful - a suffering continual - and yet not wanted by God - repulsed - empty - no faith - no love - no zeal. Souls hold no attraction - Heaven means nothing - to me it looks like an empty place - the…” quote by Brian Kolodiejchuk](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/1ab/brian-kolodiejchuk-47338_attraction_there-is-so-much-deep-contradiction-in-m_450878.png) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/1ab/brian-kolodiejchuk-47338_attraction_there-is-so-much-deep-contradiction-in-m_450878.png) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/1ab/brian-kolodiejchuk-47338_attraction_there-is-so-much-deep-contradiction-in-m_450878.png) > “There is so much deep contradiction in my soul. Such deep longing for God - so deep that it is painful - a suffering continual - and yet not wanted by God - repulsed - empty - no faith - no love - no zeal. Souls hold no attraction - Heaven means nothing - to me it looks like an empty place - the thought of it means nothing to me and yet this torturing longing for God. Pray for me please that I keep smiling at Him in spite of everything. For I am only His - so He has every right over me. I am perfectly happy to be nobody even to God. . . . Your devoted child in J.C. M. Teresa” [Brian Kolodiejchuk](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/brian-kolodiejchuk/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. The writer expresses intense yearning for divine connection, feeling both longing and emptiness, yet remains devoted despite doubt. **In simple terms:** Deep spiritual yearning mixed with doubt. Key Takeaway Embrace faith while acknowledging struggle. Themes faith longing doubt devotion Mood melancholic contemplative Type spiritual philosophical When to use this quote - prayer - personal crisis - seeking meaning - religious practice Key Concepts existential crisis theology spiritual emptiness Questions to Reflect On - What sustains faith amid profound doubt? - How can one find meaning when divine longing feels empty? 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