--- title: "Meaning & Key Takeaway of: I wondered how this misery would end. I…" description: "\"“I wondered how this misery would end. I was full of fear. I was afraid to tell others what I felt lest they would think I was insane. I was terribly l..." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/45f/alcoholics-anonymous-4926_deep-depression_i-wondered-how-this-misery-would-end-i-w_141783.jpg" --- # I wondered how this misery would end. I was full of fear… ![“I wondered how this misery would end. I was full of fear. I was afraid to tell others what I felt lest they would think I was insane. I was terribly lonely, full of self-pity, and terrified. Most of all, I was in a deep depression.” quote by Alcoholics Anonymous](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/45f/alcoholics-anonymous-4926_deep-depression_i-wondered-how-this-misery-would-end-i-w_141783.jpg) [Download](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/45f/alcoholics-anonymous-4926_deep-depression_i-wondered-how-this-misery-would-end-i-w_141783.jpg) [Open image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/45f/alcoholics-anonymous-4926_deep-depression_i-wondered-how-this-misery-would-end-i-w_141783.jpg) > ““I wondered how this misery would end. I was full of fear. I was afraid to tell others what I felt lest they would think I was insane. I was terribly lonely, full of self-pity, and terrified. Most of all, I was in a deep depression.”” [Alcoholics Anonymous](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alcoholics-anonymous/) ## About This Quote This interpretation was drafted with AI assistance. It is one reading of the quote, not the author's own explanation. A confession of deep depression, fear, and loneliness, fearing judgment. **In simple terms:** Depression feels isolating and scary. Key Takeaway Seek help and share feelings safely. Themes mental health loneliness fear Mood somber empathetic Type supportive personal When to use this quote - therapy - support groups - journaling - crisis hotlines Key Concepts psychology addiction recovery stigma Questions to Reflect On - What would make you feel safe to share? - How can you support someone in similar pain? 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