--- title: "1 Pain Memories Quotes By Alice Jamieson" description: "1 Pain Memories quotes by Alice Jamieson. Plus more from Alice Jamieson and more Pain Memories sayings from other authors." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/2c6/alice-jamieson-21585_abuse_why-do-i-take-a-blade-and-slash-my-arms_202386.jpg" --- > [“Why do I take a blade and slash my arms? Why do I drink myself into a stupor? Why do I swallow bottles of pills and end up in A&E having my stomach pumped? Am I seeking attention? Showing off?…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/why-do-i-take-a-blade-and-slash-my-arms-why-do-i-drink-myself-into-a/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) [Image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/2c6/alice-jamieson-21585_abuse_why-do-i-take-a-blade-and-slash-my-arms_202386.jpg) ## More by Alice Jamieson > [“The word is dissociate. There is no 'a' before the 'ss'. People invariably say dis-a-ssociate, which, if you're suffering Disso-ciative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder,…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/the-word-is-dissociate-there-is-no-a-before-the-ss-people-invariably/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“It’s hard to feel supported when you can’t tell people everything. People haven’t really got a clue what it’s like. It’s hard to trust…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/it-s-hard-to-feel-supported-when-you-can-t-tell-people-everything/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“If I was set an essay on Friday, I’d spend three hours on Saturday morning in the library. Was that normal? I didn’t know.…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/if-i-was-set-an-essay-on-friday-i-d-spend-three-hours-on-saturday/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“When the black thing was at its worst, when the illicit cocktails and the ten-mile runs stopped working, I would feel numb as if…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/when-the-black-thing-was-at-its-worst-when-the-illicit-cocktails-and/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“Why do I take a blade and slash my arms? Why do I drink myself into a stupor? Why do I swallow bottles of…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/why-do-i-take-a-blade-and-slash-my-arms-why-do-i-drink-myself-into-a/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“PART 2 I felt doomed to death, But in a flash, Before I could reduce my thoughts To an emotion, I felt a mass…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/part-2-i-felt-doomed-to-death-but-in-a-flash-before-i-could-reduce-my/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“Weird? Absurd? That’s how it seemed to me. I had these forces, these compunctions, these alternative personalities inside me, driving me. It was like…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/weird-absurd-that-s-how-it-seemed-to-me-i-had-these-forces-these/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“When sleep came, I would dream bad dreams. Not the baby and the big man with a cigarette-lighter dream. Another dream. The castle dream.…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/when-sleep-came-i-would-dream-bad-dreams-not-the-baby-and-the-big-man/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“Of course, I should have known the kids would pop out in the atmosphere of Roberta's office. That's what they do when Alice is…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/of-course-i-should-have-known-the-kids-would-pop-out-in-the/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“Once I had found the courage to tell Rebecca about the children in my head, it wasn't so hard in the coming months to…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/once-i-had-found-the-courage-to-tell-rebecca-about-the-children-in-my/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“During this hour in the waking streets I felt at ease, at peace; my body, which I despised, operated like a machine. I was…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/during-this-hour-in-the-waking-streets-i-felt-at-ease-at-peace-my/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“When I was cooking I enjoyed a sense of being ‘out’ of myself. The action of dicing vegetables and warming oil made my hands…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/when-i-was-cooking-i-enjoyed-a-sense-of-being-out-of-myself-the/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“One weekend it rained for 48 hours without stopping. The rain beat like bony fingers against the window panes. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap.…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/one-weekend-it-rained-for-48-hours-without-stopping-the-rain-beat/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“Some alters are what Dr Ross describes in Multiple Personality Disorder as 'fragments', which are 'relatively limited psychic states that express only one feeling,…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/some-alters-are-what-dr-ross-describes-in-multiple-personality/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) > [“Some alters are what Dr Ross describes in Multiple Personality Disorder as 'fragments'. which are 'relatively limited psychic states that express only one feeling,…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/alice-jamieson/some-alters-are-what-dr-ross-describes-in-multiple-personality-2/) [Alice Jamieson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/alice-jamieson/) ```json { "@context": "https://schema.org", "@graph": [ { "@type": "ItemList", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/pain-memories/alice-jamieson/#itemlist", "name": "1 Pain Memories Quotes By Alice Jamieson", "numberOfItems": 1, "itemListElement": [ { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 1, "item": { "@type": "Quotation", "text": "“Why do I take a blade and slash my arms? 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In most things we do, we anticipate some reward or payment. We study for status and to get better jobs; we work for money; our children are little mirrors of our social standing; the charity donation and trip to Oxfam make us feel good. Every kindness carries the potential gift of a responding kindness: you reap what you sow. There is no advantage in my harming myself; no reason for me to invent delusional memories of incest and ritual abuse. 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