--- title: "1 Hate Fear Quotes By Rachel Higginson" description: "1 Hate Fear quotes by Rachel Higginson. Plus more from Rachel Higginson and more Hate Fear sayings from other authors." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/eeb/rachel-higginson-3579_abusive-relationship_god-i-was-a-mess-when-it-came-to-derrek_10194.jpg" --- > [“God, I was a mess when it came to Derrek. One part relief that I wasn’t still with him. One part embarrassment that I’d become a victim, that I’d let myself get sucked into an abusive relationship to begin with.…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/god-i-was-a-mess-when-it-came-to-derrek-one-part-relief-that-i-wasn-t/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) [Image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/eeb/rachel-higginson-3579_abusive-relationship_god-i-was-a-mess-when-it-came-to-derrek_10194.jpg) ## More by Rachel Higginson > [“God, I was a mess when it came to Derrek. One part relief that I wasn’t still with him. One part embarrassment that I’d…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/god-i-was-a-mess-when-it-came-to-derrek-one-part-relief-that-i-wasn-t/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“My mother was the person I loved most in this world. She was also the person that had messed me up the most.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/my-mother-was-the-person-i-loved-most-in-this-world-she-was-also-the/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“Also, they seemed a bit Hunger Game-ish which only made me feel that much more like a badass.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/also-they-seemed-a-bit-hunger-game-ish-which-only-made-me-feel-that/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“Be real, is salt holding you at gunpoint right now?”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/be-real-is-salt-holding-you-at-gunpoint-right-now/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“I do love you Eden, with all that I am. I don't believe there has been a more perfect love to ever exist in…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/i-do-love-you-eden-with-all-that-i-am-i-don-t-believe-there-has-been/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“But with every breath I had left, I will use it to love you. Because, Eden, I want this...You; I want you more than…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/but-with-every-breath-i-had-left-i-will-use-it-to-love-you-because/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“was basically the Cinderella of boyfriend t’s and I’d finally found the right fit.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/was-basically-the-cinderella-of-boyfriend-t-s-and-i-d-finally-found/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“I was just Molly, remember? And he was Ezra F-something Baptiste.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/i-was-just-molly-remember-and-he-was-ezra-f-something-baptiste/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“There were so many bad people in the world, so many people that would rather hurt and harm and crush. But the good people…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/there-were-so-many-bad-people-in-the-world-so-many-people-that-would/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“Where are you supposed to stay?” He ground out... “Hendrix, are you kidding me?” “By me, Reagan. Always, by me,” he answered, ignoring my…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/where-are-you-supposed-to-stay-he-ground-out-hendrix-are-you-kidding/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“If I was going to be treated like a child, then I was going to act like one.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/if-i-was-going-to-be-treated-like-a-child-then-i-was-going-to-act/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“One day, we will sit together and remember how we changed things. We will remember the way things used to be, and teach our…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/one-day-we-will-sit-together-and-remember-how-we-changed-things-we/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“Our happily ever after was so different than what I’d pictured, but it was right. And it was ours.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/our-happily-ever-after-was-so-different-than-what-i-d-pictured-but-it/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“Aunt Syl must have conveniently stopped reading the childhood fairy tales when the knight left the damsel in distress to pursue a better damsel…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/aunt-syl-must-have-conveniently-stopped-reading-the-childhood-fairy/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) > [“And that meant STDs. Why? Because men would always be sluts. Always.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/rachel-higginson/and-that-meant-stds-why-because-men-would-always-be-sluts-always/) [Rachel Higginson](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/rachel-higginson/) ```json { "@context": "https://schema.org", "@graph": [ { "@type": "ItemList", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/hate-fear/rachel-higginson/#itemlist", "name": "1 Hate Fear Quotes By Rachel Higginson", "numberOfItems": 1, "itemListElement": [ { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 1, "item": { "@type": "Quotation", "text": "“God, I was a mess when it came to Derrek. One part relief that I wasn’t still with him. One part embarrassment that I’d become a victim, that I’d let myself get sucked into an abusive relationship to begin with. One part hate—pure, raw, violent hate. And one part fear. Fear that he would find me again. Fear that he would suck me back in, remind me that I was nothing without him, that I would never be anything without him. Fear that he wouldn’t give me the choice. 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