--- title: "2 Dying inside Quotes By Kaile Stewart" description: "2 Dying inside quotes by Kaile Stewart. Plus more from Kaile Stewart and more Dying inside sayings from other authors." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/670/kaile-stewart-16885_being-depressed_could-you-stop-my-heart-it-s-always-beat_2229332.jpg" --- > [Could you stop my heart? It's always beating. Sinking like a weight. I don't think I am okay. No not today . Now I know that it's not the same. Different people, different days. It won't change. It wasn't a…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/could-you-stop-my-heart-it-s-always-beating-sinking-like-a-weight-i/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) [Image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/670/kaile-stewart-16885_being-depressed_could-you-stop-my-heart-it-s-always-beat_2229332.jpg) > [Her eyes screamed the saddest apology the world has ever heardoh the scars on her wrist? dont worry, she says their just a reminder of how many times you broke her heart Sometimes I just feel like Running away just…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/her-eyes-screamed-the-saddest-apology-the-world-has-ever-heardoh-the/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) [Image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/6c4/kaile-stewart-16885_beautiful-day_her-eyes-screamed-the-saddest-apology-th_2676503.jpg) ## Other authors on Dying inside ## More by Kaile Stewart > [This is how I feel right now. this is who I am. this is what happens when someone gets bullied, when I dont get…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/this-is-how-i-feel-right-now-this-is-who-i-am-this-is-what-happens/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [Would you still love me if I cut myself? If I killed myself? Would you even notice? Would you even care?](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/would-you-still-love-me-if-i-cut-myself-if-i-killed-myself-would-you/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [Life is precious Life is a god sent gift and it is your duty to live it to the full. You might face several…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/life-is-precious-life-is-a-god-sent-gift-and-it-is-your-duty-to-live/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [I wish I could peel off my scars and seal them in a manila envelope Then hide it in the back of my wardrobe,…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/i-wish-i-could-peel-off-my-scars-and-seal-them-in-a-manila-envelope/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [Beware the person who has nothing to lose.In the end, music is your only friend.I know what its like to want to die; how…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/beware-the-person-who-has-nothing-to-lose-in-the-end-music-is-your/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [Once I was sitting by the side of the Ganges in Allahabad alone, in a very lonely spot, and I saw a man jump…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/once-i-was-sitting-by-the-side-of-the-ganges-in-allahabad-alone-in-a/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [Suicide doesn't heal the pain it just passes it one to the people you love.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/suicide-doesn-t-heal-the-pain-it-just-passes-it-one-to-the-people-you/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [To my friends: My work is done. Why wait?](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/to-my-friends-my-work-is-done-why-wait/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [As the days go by, and I feel like cutting, or just ending it all, Ive gave up hope on myself, that Ill get…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/as-the-days-go-by-and-i-feel-like-cutting-or-just-ending-it-all-ive/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [I've been overdosing on pain pills,etc. I'm so dizzy now. I want to die so badly](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/i-ve-been-overdosing-on-pain-pills-etc-i-m-so-dizzy-now-i-want-to-die/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you.Its hard to answer the question whats wrong when nothings right.Im tired…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/sometimes-you-need-to-run-away-just-to-see-who-will-follow-you-its/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [I can't do this anymore. I never told anyone this in a long time. But I was raped. and I told people about it…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/i-can-t-do-this-anymore-i-never-told-anyone-this-in-a-long-time-but-i/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [You cut your wrist, and hope to die. Everyday you get bullied, beatten by your parents and students, your unloved, your unwanted. Just one…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/you-cut-your-wrist-and-hope-to-die-everyday-you-get-bullied-beatten/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [And so I leave this world, where the heart must either break or turn to lead.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/and-so-i-leave-this-world-where-the-heart-must-either-break-or-turn-2/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) > [I miss her so much, she left yesterday, to the hostital. I have been to 4 already, I hated it there so much.](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/kaile-stewart/i-miss-her-so-much-she-left-yesterday-to-the-hostital-i-have-been-to/) [Kaile Stewart](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/kaile-stewart/) ```json { "@context": "https://schema.org", "@graph": [ { "@type": "ItemList", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/dying-inside/kaile-stewart/#itemlist", "name": "2 Dying inside Quotes By Kaile Stewart", "numberOfItems": 2, "itemListElement": [ { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 1, "item": { "@type": "Quotation", "text": "Could you stop my heart? It's always beating. Sinking like a weight. I don't think I am okay. No not today . Now I know that it's not the same. Different people, different days. It won't change. It wasn't a suicide attempt, it was an escape from everything awful. When we cut, we're in control- we make our own pain and we can stop it whenever we want. Physical pain relieves mental anguish. For a brief moment, the pain of cutting is the only thing in the cutter's mind, and when that stops and the other comes back, it is weaker. Drugs do that too, and sex, but not like cutting. Nothing is like cutting. The cracks in the concrete remind that no matter how srong you are, you will always fall apart. My life is so full of old scars that there's no room for a new wound. How will you know if I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain? To wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain. Have you ever had that feeling? That itch just below the skin that only a razor could scratch? Sometimes I sit and watch the ink leak from my pen. It comforts me to know something else bleeds the way I do. Sometimes I wonder if it's really worth while. If I should keep going on, faking all these smiles. In that one instance I hated everyone in my life, everyone and everything, and me most of all. I just want to be happy again but I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore. It is the strong who survive and the weak who will simply fade. If I tell them I need help, my weakness will be displayed. You never know when you wake up, if all will be the same, or if you'll be back in your dark place, again to feel the pain. I cut to prove to you that you are not the only one that can hurt me. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised. It's not supposed to be like this. Can this be all there is? You dream bigger, you fall harder. Think of things that should've never happened. You think of all the things that never will. All my life, Ive welcomed pain. Ive made up more excuses to bring it back again. Now Im here and Ill drink to the shame. Ill drink to the madness that made me this way. I'd show a smile but Im too weak. I'd share with you could I only speak. Just how much this hurts me. Do you ever smile and find it shameful 'cause you don't know who you are? Sometimes, it's the things that don't hurt at all that make you cry. In reality, I'm slowly losing my mind. Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly. Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise til I go home at night and turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry. The sky isn't always blue. The sun doesn't always shine. So it's okay to fall apart sometimes. I bleed for you, that's why I cut. These simple scars are just deep thoughts. You do it to yourself...and that's why it really hurts. Behind this inoccent smile of mine, lay words left unsaid. Words of longing, love,anger, and hate, all repeating inside my head. The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed. Every minute is a mile. I've never felt so hallow. I'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles. They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven But they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to Hell. See these scars on me? I'm just marking territory. Die young and save yourself. It takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has. But, lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all. Happiness is not a fish that you can catch. This is where I say I've had enough. No one should ever feel the way that I feel now. You can lock your doors and windows to keep the pain at bay. Yesterday may be dead and gone, but the past won't go away. It's waiting right around every corner with a heartache you don't need. Self-injury is a sign of distress not madness. We should be congratulated on having found a way of surviving. I cant stop thinking about cutting myself up. Visual bruises can be covered with make-up. But down to the core, Im all bruises. You can't see that I'm hurting. You're too blind to notice my pain. It feels like everyone is sitting in the sunshine, while I'm drowning in the rain. I certainly didnt tell anyone; I didnt advertise that I was doing this, but I didnt necessarily also make sure no one could see that I was injured. In fact, I felt proud of it; I felt good about it. It was like a battle scar: [it] proved [that I had been] grievously wounded and survived. 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Force a smile, blink away the tears Im ((supposed to)) be strong ((supposed to)) have no fears but* I'm finding it hard not to frown im such a [ s t r o N g ] person ...why am I breaking down¦ SHe's the kind of girl who has the biggest smile on her face even when shes balling her eyes out Fake friends Broken Hearts to mend Lying cheating stealing Pain thats never healing Scars from sad nights Black eyes from fist fights Never ending stress Trying for the best Too many tears for someone to save me Being a teenager is way too crazy THey say that the teenage years are the best of your life.. but I disagree.. I just want to be a kid again I'm going to smile.. and make u think I'm happy.. im going to laugh.. so u dont see me cry.. and even if it kills me.. im going to smile. I don't know what to do anymore, nothing feels the same, I never see a smile in the mirror, I only see pain, pain beneath my soul, so deep inside of me there is no escaping it, no coming back to a normal state of mind, there's nothing I can do anymore. im mad at myself for crying i dont even remember the reason but the tears keep flowing and they just wont stop i'm supposed to be strong but everythings so wrong Oh how I wish I could see tears seep through your eyes, but even that wouldn't be enough to cover up the lies you kept from me. This is where I say I've had enough and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I'm getting any better. It's what ppl do without thinking that cause the quick tears.. Eventually the tears will be forgotten, ..But the hurt will stay in the heart forever.. It's getting colder now And the darkness consumes me Depression is slowly creeping up Maybe one day you'll actually care about me Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad *..ive learned that stuff happens, people change, and it doesnt mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories, letting go doesnt mean giving up, its just accepting the fact that some things werent meant to be..* I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there, so that the pain yesterday brought wont carry on to tomorrow. Sometimes I find myself faking a smile just to get through the day. I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering I thought somebody would notice, I thought somebody would say something¦ I could pretend that Im not dying inside, but just so you know... I am. The memory dies as the sun leaves the skies and I'm alone again. I wish it was raining, cause I hate every beautiful day Even if its a lie, say itll be alright, and I will believe... As we grow older, it gets harder to believe. Its not that we dont want to but too much has happened and we cant. Dont fall into the trap of pretending everything is okay when you know its not. There comes a point in your life when you realize that nothing will ever be the same, and you realize that from now on time will be divided into two parts- before this and after this. Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt. Id like to think Ill be happy again, but I really need to stop and cry right now. Sometimes, I wish I could scream at you, and just to show you what you do to me. You know, I dont think Ill ever be happy. Wherever I am, Ill wish Im somewhere else. Whatever I have, Ill want something different. 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