--- title: "2 Abused Quotes By Laurie Matthew" description: "2 Abused quotes by Laurie Matthew. Plus more from Laurie Matthew and more Abused sayings from other authors." image: "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/2f1/laurie-matthew-31209_abuse_he-loves-me-so-he-hurts-me-to-try-and-ma_850854.jpg" --- > [“He loves me so he hurts me To try and make me good. It doesn't work. I'm just too bad And don't do what I should. My memory has so many different sections and, like all survivors, there are so…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/he-loves-me-so-he-hurts-me-to-try-and-make-me-good-it-doesn-t-work-i/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) [Image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/2f1/laurie-matthew-31209_abuse_he-loves-me-so-he-hurts-me-to-try-and-ma_850854.jpg) > [ “Mum was pregnant, then there was Sharron. \[...\] I wanted to keep him away from her - but for the wrong reasons. In my head he was mine, he was my special person but, of course, as I was getting… ](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/mum-was-pregnant-then-there-was-sharron-i-wanted-to-keep-him-away/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) [Image](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/i/ca2/laurie-matthew-31209_abused_mum-was-pregnant-then-there-was-sharron_3212563.jpg) ## Other authors on Abused ## More by Laurie Matthew > [“Those who support such survivors of abuse often find it difficult to hear the reality of those survivors' lives and experience and are often…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/those-who-support-such-survivors-of-abuse-often-find-it-difficult-to/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“The people who were behind my abuse were very clever. They had created something which would be so difficult to explain, so difficult to…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/the-people-who-were-behind-my-abuse-were-very-clever-they-had-created/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“Political prisoners describe: - extreme physical and emotional torture - distortion of language, truth, meaning and reality - sham killings - begin repeatedly taken…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/political-prisoners-describe-extreme-physical-and-emotional-torture/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“Some abusers organise themselves in groups to abuse children and other adults in a more formally ritualised way. Men and women in these groups…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/some-abusers-organise-themselves-in-groups-to-abuse-children-and/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“He loves me so he hurts me To try and make me good. It doesn't work. I'm just too bad And don't do what…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/he-loves-me-so-he-hurts-me-to-try-and-make-me-good-it-doesn-t-work-i/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“Ritualised child sexual abuse is about abuse of power, control and secrecy. Ten years ago many people found it difficult to believe that fathers…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/ritualised-child-sexual-abuse-is-about-abuse-of-power-control-and/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“I'm just asking you to accept that there are some people who will go to extraordinary lengths to cover up the facts that they…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/i-m-just-asking-you-to-accept-that-there-are-some-people-who-will-go/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“It felt like I was living in two worlds. There was one world which was a daylight world and another dark world (though I'm…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/it-felt-like-i-was-living-in-two-worlds-there-was-one-world-which-was/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [ “In a nutshell, the process they \[abusers in a ritual abuse group\] use on survivors is designed to: break the will and personality of… ](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/in-a-nutshell-the-process-they-abusers-in-a-ritual-abuse-group-use-on/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“In some counties, there is an actual named crime of ritual abuse and there too, there have been convictions.”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/in-some-counties-there-is-an-actual-named-crime-of-ritual-abuse-and/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“Ritual abuse is highly organised and, obviously, secretive. It is often linked with other major crimes such as child pornography, child prostitution, the drugs…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/ritual-abuse-is-highly-organised-and-obviously-secretive-it-is-often/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“I have to find a place to hide An island in the sea Surrounded by a racing tide Where I can live with me”](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/i-have-to-find-a-place-to-hide-an-island-in-the-sea-surrounded-by-a/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“There is unmistakable proof that abusers do get together in order to share children, abuse more children, and even learn from each other. As…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/there-is-unmistakable-proof-that-abusers-do-get-together-in-order-to/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“….Nothing was inevitable. She had not chosen this way. It was her fate. It had been decided since before time began. It had been…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/nothing-was-inevitable-she-had-not-chosen-this-way-it-was-her-fate-it/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) > [“There was nothing you could be sure about, it was all lies, and it was all done to mess with minds because the control…](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/laurie-matthew/there-was-nothing-you-could-be-sure-about-it-was-all-lies-and-it-was/) [Laurie Matthew](https://sms4smile.com/quotes/author/laurie-matthew/) ```json { "@context": "https://schema.org", "@graph": [ { "@type": "ItemList", "@id": "https://sms4smile.com/quotes/about/abused/laurie-matthew/#itemlist", "name": "2 Abused Quotes By Laurie Matthew", "numberOfItems": 2, "itemListElement": [ { "@type": "ListItem", "position": 1, "item": { "@type": "Quotation", "text": "“He loves me so he hurts me To try and make me good. It doesn't work. I'm just too bad And don't do what I should. 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